Still Have Nightmares
A Memory of Fornethy Residential School.
I will never forget Fornethy residential till the day I die. I remember it was in the 80s. I’m sure I was in primary 6 or 7 and my friends and I begged our parents to go what I thought would be an amazing adventure. I remember my mum packing all my lovely new clothes and sent me on my way. I was quite a well developed child and very timid and shy. it turned out that none of my friends went so I was reluctant to go. to this day I wish the horrid memories would fade. Pretty much from the first day the experience was a nightmare. I was one of the oldest there and my life was made a misery. It was very regimented with older teachers a good few who were incredibly cruel. I remember being responsible for walking the dog in the long long walks frozen cold with the dog and me full of muck, I was told to make sure the dog was kept clean so when back at the school the mud would be all over the floor which I would need to scrub till spotless then have to wash the dog whilst everyone else would be drinking their milk with digestive biscuit. This happened almost every day. I remember being told to stand in line as it was time to have our shower. I was very modest and didn’t want to stand naked so I wore my swimming costume. Of course this drew attention from the teacher. My costume was removed from me and I was made to double up in a cubicle with another girl and made to wash each other whilst the teacher watched. Once up at river Esk because I was disobedient in wearing the costume I was made to stay in the dorm while the girls went downstairs to watch Grease 2. the teacher made sure she left me with a few stories about the school being haunted. I remember there were shutters on the windows that banged constantly with the rain that evening and I remained terrified. they sure had it in for me. I remember one night the girl in the bed beside me was crying for her mum. I tried to console her and reassure her that I’d look after her but next thing I knew I had this massive torch light glare right into my eyes and was hit on the head and marched outside the dorm. I was made to stand outside the teachers bedroom all night. dinner time was a nightmare and were force fed our meals. I’m sure I recall a tuck shop but I was told my mum never gave me any money which I knew wasn’t true. I remember we were to attend church and my mum had bought me a really pretty glittery dress to wear but a teacher made sure that I’d be dressed in a kilt which was too big for me and kept falling down and I was a laughing stock. We were all made to dance round a statue I’m sure was of Peter Pan. I remember going into a classroom one day with a letter written on the blackboard that we were to write to our parents. I didn’t do this and wrote a letter begging my daddy to come and collect me and explaining all the things that were happening to me. I never thought for a minute the teacher would read them first and I was made to rip it into pieces and write the one from the blackboard. I remember on our way home which felt like forever and as we pulled into Buchanan bus station parents were coming to the bus to collect their children and I couldn’t see my mum and dad. I’ll never forget that teachers words on the bus that day saying to me oh what a shame there not here for you we will have to take you back to fornethy, I remember being physically sick until I saw my dads head appear in the crowd and I ran off that bus and into his arms. I’m sitting crying here writing this and I hope karma prevailed on the horrible women that made what was meant to be a memorable holiday a total nightmare that haunts me still. Even looking at the pictures of the place frightens me.
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I remember being here in Oct 69,I’m 61 now but have never forgotten the way I and a lot of others ware treated! I remember one night in our Dorm think if memory serves right It was the blue dorm, a couple of the girls were chatting and giggling and a teacher burst in and pulled me out of bed as mine was bed was as you came in the door she pulled my pjs off and totally leathered me ! I remember I crying myself to sleep and could hardly sit down next day because of the pain on my bottom! When sending letters home you had to write what was on the board , couldn’t write home to tell them what happened. I ended up with a cold sore on my lip whilst there and the used an antiseptic wipe to pull the scab off I’ve never forgotten the pain off that! I was also a bed wetter and remember getting slapped shouted at and ridiculed and deprived of drinks, also being made to stand in corner facing it. And missing out on church as punishment . Also not being allowed sweets or treats.how these people got away with this cruel treatment of children is beggars belief!
I know today Ive been absolutely triggered and im hoping this wee writing helps me settle a bit. I went there around autumn 1977. I was 8 and already traumatised. Id just like to share n validate my experiences with the rest of you if that's OK? Getting two table spoons of castor oil and being made to stand in the medical area in the dark as everyone got ready for dinner. Being made to stand in the library for what felt like all night due to a pillow fight. My dorm was the one at tge left hand side on the 1st floor.
We had to line up every morning in order of height in our pants n vests as clothes were kept down stairs where all the coats and shoes were. I used to watch the handy men stop as we proceeded past them and stare at us. Force fed 3x 3 course meals a day. Plates had to be cleared. Intercepting children's letters who dared to write home their woes and reading them out in the dinner hall then ripping them up. Communal naked showers. Bathed and deloused every Sunday in a queue with two ladies who scrubbed you down. I saw a squeeze bottle and asked why they didn't have shampoo. She said it was shampoo. Remember the old black bottles with Squeezy written on it, well it was that. They probably were defrauding the council with that kind of thing. Long punishing walks where you had to carry their ancient dogs. Wearing old boots n gators, it was crippling and a daily occurance. Half a day in the class room with no discernable teaching. Copying letters off tge blackboard to write home. If you wet the bed they turned your chair at the bottom of the bed so everyone knew plus you got a rollicking in front of the whole dorm. I remember a wet sheet being hung out a dorm window by a teacher to dry. I saw Robertson kick a wee girl up tge back side in the tuc shop with her wooden skolls on. Only pig tails worn in hair. Punishment if you did a pony tail. My friend did that but I didn't know her punishment. No contact whatsoever with family. Mine sent postal orders but ill never know if I got that amount of sweeties. They let us watch a double horror bill every Saturday night as you stayed up till 11 then. Why? Of all the things we could have watched, they put that on for us. I was terrified going to bed after that. I was there in 1977 abd there was a scary incident with a bull in a field and I remember being so terrified. Also when I was there Mrs Lockie hurt her ankle and she was limping and when I saw her bandage I was happy. She was particularly terrifying. Im sure she didn't stay over but ahe was brittle, an utter snob and treated us like dirt under her shoe. She also had an old decrepit dog that she made us carry. There was a young one with black hair that was residential and she had an ancient dog too. We had to take it in turns to carry those dogs. I loved animals but knew that was wrong.
The FB survivors group and Marion Reid have been unbelievable in their courage n strength.
After finding this blog years ago I went on to find Marion abd have many chats with her. If it wasn't for Marion's courage I wouldn't be part of thia group. Im not on the FB so thank you for reading this. I want to give my love to everyone who experience that Hell Hole the biggest hug and thanks for Advocating for us all and love to you all here. Im away to make a cuppa now with 2 tea bags. Love to all xxxxxx